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NAME(S): Dean Winchester
AGE: 31
FANDOM: Supernatural

BACKGROUND HISTORY:
Wikipedia's ever-helpful extensive character history
The SPN Wiki's just-as-extensive character history, if not more so, complete with pictures!

I can't really sum everything up better than the wikis already did, especially the SPN one, so I hope you won't count the irreverent writing style and skimread-style overview focusing specifically on Dean-based things against me. :'D

When Dean was four, his mother was killed in his baby brother's nursery by a demon. He carried baby Sammy out of the fire at his father's urgings. This basically set the scene for the rest of his life.

Dean grew up as his father John's little soldier in the war against the supernatural. John's quest to take revenge on the Yellow-Eyed Demon consumed him to the point where he was more of a drill sergeant than a father, forcing Dean to grow up a hell of a lot faster than he should have, and leaving him to basically raise Sam while John was off hunting monsters/searching for Yellow Eyes/probably angsting in the car to sad rock music. As the Winchester brothers grew up past what passed for a childhood, John started taking them on hunts with him (instead of leaving them behind at a motel in whatever town they were in or dropping them off at a friendly hunter's house). Dean took to it like a duck to water, Daddy's perfect soldier boy, but Sam eventually snapped and ran off to university. Dean hunted with John for a while, until they too separated and started taking different hunts each to cover more ground. Dean was well into his 20s before John let him off alone. It was on one of these separate hunts that John fell out of contact, and Dean grew worried about him. He went to grab Sam from Stanford University as backup, much to Sam's chagrin, and this is where the show begins.

Sam only agreed to come along for a single trip to John's last hunting area, and although they kill the spirit that was haunting the place, John is nowhere to be found. Only, they find his journal, complete with co-ordinates that indicate where they should go next. Sam refuses and demands to go back to Stanford, but the small matter of returning home to find his girlfriend dead and burning on the ceiling leads him to change his mind when Dean drags him out of the fire once again. So endeth the Pilot and starteth the journey.

The journey consisting of Saving People, Hunting Things, The Family Business while looking for John and/or the Yellow-Eyed Demon. As will soon become a pattern, their hunts take them across huge swathes of the country, following the trail of John but never quite catching up. Along they way, they end up returning to their childhood home at one point and exorcising the house with the help of their mother's ghost, Dean nearly dies from heart failure due to an electric shock but is saved by a faith healer whose wife is channelling a Grim Reaper (chalk that up as the first of many, many deaths to come), and Dean hooks up with his first love, a girl named Cassie who the show has valiantly tried to forget due to her episode being their heavy-handed attempt at a Racism Awareness Episode. There's also the requisite brotherly conflict between Sam and Dean, due to Sam's determination to find John and get revenge on the YED, while Dean is more content to follow John's instructions even if they don't lead to that conclusion, and the seeds are laid for a later plot with the reveal of Sam's psychic visions. John does eventually show up, to many manhugs, and he and the boys fight the demon Meg and her evil murderous shadow creatures. By the end of the episode Dean tells John that he's stronger without them, because they make him vulnerable, and John leaves.

A few more cases later, John shows up in their lives again and they fight some vampires, in order to get a gun that can kill the normally-unkillable demons. Unfortunately, Meg is very tenacious, and lures John away to trade the Colt for her not killing all of the hunters who ever helped him. The plan is for the boys to stay behind with the real Colt to attack the YED, who they are certain will appear in this particular house that evening, while John attempts to buy time by plying Meg with a fake. The plans, predictably, fail - the boys save the family, but are unable to kill the YED (and Dean has to hold his brother back from running into the burning building to attempt another shot, the guy should seriously have been a fireman); John's ruse is seen through by Meg and her brother and he is captured. The boys track him down by using a bit of demon-torturing on a captured Meg before sending her back to Hell with the help of old family friend/much-used ex-babysitter/long-lost pseudofatherfigure Bobby Singer, and freeing the poor girl who was her host body to die. They rescue him, only to realise too late that he is possessed by the YED. Dean is then nearly killed by the demon, but John manages to take control for long enough to stop it. Dean collapses to the floor due to pain and blood loss, leaving the demon to Sam, but Sam doesn't have the heart to fatally shoot his father with the Colt, though, as it will kill John as well as the demon, despite John screaming orders at him to do it (and possibly because of Dean shouting equally , and he resorts to shooting him in the leg. The demon promptly flees, by escaping John's body in the native demon form of black smoke. Then on the way to the hospital to treat Dean's many, many injuries, they're hit by a demon-driven semi truck. Because that's the Winchester luck.

Lucky for them, they end up in hospital. Unluckily, Dean's in a coma and dying. He spends a while in an out-of-body experience tussling with a Reaper who turns out to be a pretty lady Reader called Tessa. She tries to convince him to go with her into the light, or stay behind and become one of the ghosts they hunt. While he's considering this, John's busy selling his soul and the Colt to the YED for Dean's life. Dean promptly wakes up before he can give Tessa the yes or the no, only for John to have a fatherly love-affirming heart-to-heart and then tell him that sooner or later, if he can't save Sam from his darkness, he'll have to kill him. And then John walks out of the door and collapses, dead, and Dean has even more guilt forever since it's painfully obvious to him and everyone else that John sold his soul to Hell to save him.

The following season can be summed up as Sam Is A Psychic Freak With Demon Blood, And Dean Very Gradually Admits That He Is Kind Of Really Not Actually Okay With Dad Dying Because He Is Allergic To Feelings. They meet some more kids whose families went through the same thing theirs did, other kids who have abilities like Sam. The Winchesters start to seriously worry about what the YED's plan was and why. The Harvelles also show up properly - Ellen and Jo, a mother-daughter team who run the Roadhouse, a hunter bar - and Dean tries to hit on the daughter Jo, failing due to deep Dad-based depression. Jo promptly tags along with the Winchesters against her mother's and their wishes in order to help them with a case, and nearly gets murdered (because she is a pretty girl in Supernatural and that tends to happen so they can be saved by the Winchesters). They also deal with a crossroads demon, who grants wishes for people in exchange for their souls ten years down the line. The demon takes the opportunity to mock Dean with talk of John in Hell, which is of course helpful to Dean's guilty mental state. A demon-creating violence-frenzy virus called 'croatoan' is released on a small town where the Winchesters investigate, and everything takes a brief turn for the zombie apocalypse. Sam gets bitten, but although he begs Dean to shoot him before he turns and tries to kill him, Dean refuses. He locks himself in a room with Sam, perfectly willing to just die there with him instead of having to shoot him and live on having lost all of his family - "I'm tired, Sam", he says. Being a Winchester is suffering. As luck would have it, Sam never turns, and in fact turns out to be immune for some completely unknown reason (spoilers, it's the demon blood in him, as the audience finds out at the end of the episode). This, of course, does not feed the whole "Sammy's a freak" worry undercutting the season at all.

The brothers get a nice reminder of the fact that they're on the FBI's Most Wanted list (well, Dean is) thanks to all of the (human-looking monster etc) blood on their hands, compromising situations they've been found in, and extensive identity and credit card fraud, thanks to their own personal FBI agent on their trail. They also have to deal with a ghost that thinks its an angel, which is essentially one long foreshadowing episode for the later seasons. Our old demon friend Meg comes back momentarily and possess Sam just to fuck with him and Dean before being dispatched again. Dean finds himself attacked by a Djinn that they're hunting, a being that captures people and then sends them to live in a dreamworld in their minds while it slowly drains them of life. The Djinn gives Dean a life where his mother Mary was never killed, he's married to a beautiful woman, John died of natural causes after living a happy childhood with them, and Sam is a married lawyer. Downside: in the dream!life, Dean is a drunken gambling fuck who everyone is kind of disappointed in, and he and Sam aren't at all close. Dean starts seeing visions of reality - the other Djinn-captured people - and tries to be in denial because he wants so badly for Mary to be alive and for Sam to be happy, but eventually has to choose to come back to the real world just in time for the real Sam to burst in and kill the Djinn. Only a short while later, Sam is abducted by the YED and put into a kind of Battle Royale with the other "Special Children" with psychic abilities. Dean freaks, of course, and he and Bobby track down Sam as best they can. They finally arrive on the scene just to see Sam get fatally stabbed by the only other living participant of the Special Children Showdown. Sam dies in Dean's arms. Dean refuses to bury him, pours out his heart and soul to the dead body - "I always tried to protect you, keep you safe. Dad didn't even have to tell me. This was always my responsibility, you know. It's like, I had one job. I had one job. And I screwed it up. I blew it." I really have no jokes to make, here, it's legitimately soul-crushingly tragic.

He then proves like father, like son, and sells his soul to bring Sam back to life. The crossroads demon refuses to give him the usual ten-year deal, giving him only one short year. Dean takes it, and Sam comes back to life. Dean most emphatically does not tell him how he is okay, just lets him think the stab wound wasn't as bad as it seemed. The two of them, with backup in the form of Bobby, Ellen, and Jo, go to stop the YED from enacting his plan with Jake, the winner of the battle royale, which is opening a Devil's Gate into Hell itself and letting it loose on Earth. Sam shoots the crap out of Jake - not in time to stop the plan, sadly - and the YED taunts Dean by saying that maybe Sam came back wrong to be able to do that so callously. The ghost of John comes flying out of the open Hell door to save Dean with a ghostly-demonic grapple when the YED is about to shoot him. Thanks to Daddy Winchester's timely intervention, Dean gets the shot off with the last Colt bullet, and completes the family revenge. He and Sam and John have a moment of happy proud family staring, and then the Devil's Gate is firmly shut and John passes on, presumably to Heaven. Downside: a shit-ton of demons already escaped and are gonna run rampant on the world now. Also, Sam proves to be smarter than the average hunter and figures out what Dean did, promising to get Dean out of the deal. New season plots, go!

The next few months is spent killing many things and Dean attempting to indulge and live life to the full in his final year, while Sam tries his best to not punch him for being so casual about it while trying to find a way to get him off the hook. A nice lady named Ruby shows up to help! Only to turn out to be a demon. Except it's okay because she's a demon on their side! She's gonna help them break Dean's contract! She gives them a demon-killing knife and fixes the Colt up with new bullets! And comes bearing the news that demons were actually all humans once, and being in Hell eventually twists you into a demon. Oh. So Dean has that to look forward to. He even has a dream-confrontation with demon!Dean at one point, and it's exactly as mindfucking for poor Dean as it sounds.

At any rate, they continue to search for rather desperately. Along the way, Dean finally breaks down and admits that he doesn't want to die, he doesn't want to go to Hell, and he does want to be saved. He also spends an episode racking up another hundred or so deaths, when Sam is cursed by a Trickster that they fought and thought they'd killed the previous year to live the same Tuesday over and over, with Dean dying in a new way every day. Lucky for Dean, he doesn't remember any of it, being part of the time loop himself. They hear about the new up-and-comer demon queen bee, Lilith, who's out to kill Sam as a rival. She immediately becomes Public Enemy Number One for the Winchesters. Unfortunately, they lose the Colt to master-thief-of-supernatural-items Bela Talbot, so that's one of their two anti-Lilith weapons down the drain. She eventually calls to tell Dean that Lilith holds his contract…as well as hers, since she made a deal too ten years ago, and is a few minutes from being torn apart by Hellhounds because she couldn't find Lilith and kill her with the stolen Colt. Ruby also drops the bombshell to Dean that there is actually no way to break his contract, and he's going to Hell, end of story. Lilith becomes Even More Public Enemy Number One, and they track her down out of sheer desperation. She proves to be a tricksy demon, though, and switches bodies from the little girl she was possessing into the one Ruby was possessing without them noticing, and thereby getting inside their protective salt line. She holds Sam against a wall with her powers while calling her Hellhounds to tear Dean apart and drag him to Hell. Dean dies (seriously a phrase that is needed way too much for a main character) and finds himself in Hell.

Dean remains in Hell for four months, as the clock runs on Earth, but is actually there for forty years because of the difference in how time moves between realms. He spends thirty of those years undergoing horrific torture and pain, and every day he is given a choice - if he takes up the knife himself, he can climb off the rack and stop all the pain. After thirty years, he breaks, and starts torturing to save himself. For ten years, and then suddenly, he's waking up in his coffin, back on Earth and out of hell, with nothing to explain why but a big handprint-shaped burn on his shoulder.

After having to prove he's not one of the myriad supernatural creatures that could have rolled up wearing Dean's face, Dean and Bobby and Sam try to find out what exactly dragged him topside. After it burns a psychic's eyes out when she looks at it for them, they're understandably worried about what it might be and what it might want Dean for. Turns out it's the angel Castiel, who strolls into the barn where Dean and Bobby summoned him without being bothered one bit by the wards, rock salt they shoot him with, or Ruby's knife they stab him with, and tells Dean that God has work for him. This work turns out to be protecting biblical Seals on Lucifer's cage, and preventing him rising and causing the Apocalypse. So, y'know, no pressure.

Getting mixed up with angels makes an already terrible Winchester life even worse, quite frankly, not made easier to bear by the fact that Sam and Dean just keep growing further apart. Between getting sent back in time by Castiel to meet his parents only to watch his grandparents die and his mother make the deal with Azazel that would invite him into their home and ruin everyone's lives, nearly dying of ghost sickness, finding out Sam has some seriously freaky demon-exorcising psychic powers, having to deal with Castiel's really irritable angel friend Uriel who isn't nearly as human-friendly as Cas, Cas confessing to him that he has doubts and feelings and is not just a tool of heaven like he's supposed to be, and finding out that Ruby the demon's still been alive this whole time in a new vessel and has been totally helping Sam harness said freaky powers and also banging him? And then dealing with protecting a very human fallen angel named Anna from the forces of both Heaven and Hell, only for her to have to give up and become an angel-on-the-lam anyway? And having a whale of a time fighting with Sam over Sam's powers being creepy and dangerous and Sam thinking Dean's just weak after Hell, thanks to a Siren being an asshole? And being faced with the demon Alastair who tortured him in Hell for thirty years and mentored him in torture for ten, and then being asked by the angels to let that darkness out again and torture him for information? Only to be told by Alastair that in actual fact, Dean breaking and taking up the knife broke the first seal and started this whole thing? And then have Alastair break out because Uriel is a traitorous douchebag, nearly kill him, and to then wake up in hospital where Castiel reluctantly confirms that not only did his breaking indeed break the first seal, but means that the fate of stopping the apocalypse also rests on his shoulders? It's no wonder that it takes even more angelic intervention in the form of Zachariah, the smuggest of all the Seraphim, creating a fake, 'normal' reality for Dean and Sam in order to stop Dean from throwing his hands up and ragequitting everything, by proving to them that they're destined to be hunters no matter what, by giving them normal office worker jobs complete with fake memories in a haunted office building, and then sitting back as they manage to find each other and defeat the spirit anyway. And then giving them their memories back and being the smuggest of the smug. (It works, though.)

On top of all that, they find out that a named Chuck has been writing a book series detailing their lives, without ever meeting them or even knowing they're real people rather than drunken nightmares. The show is just that meta. Castiel reveals that Chuck's a prophet of the Lord, Chuck reveals that Sam's going to have sex with Lilith that night, everyone freaks. Sam wants to fight Lilith since they've got the drop on her. Dean is more sensible and knows they haven't a snowball's chance in hell. Wacky hijinks occur while they attempt to not follow the prophecies and fate laughs in their faces. Sam disappears, Dean begs Castiel for help, Castiel has orders not to but is a sneaky loophole-finding motherfucker and he and Dean use the Archangel bound to appear whenever there is a threat (ie, a demon) near a prophet to scare Lilith away by dragging Chuck to where Sam is. On top of finding out that, Sam and Dean find out that they have a little half-brother, and are just starting to come to terms with that fact while protecting him from a monster when it turns out that Adam has been dead the whole time and they've been bonding with a sneaky little bastard ghoul wearing his face who nearly kills Sam. So that's nice too.

Just to add insult to injury, Cas asks Dean to meet him so that he can tell him something important, but when the Winchesters get there, Cas is gone, leaving behind a confused, grumpy, and homesick vessel named Jimmy. Terrible things happen when Jimmy tries to go home because being Jimmy Novak may actually be worse than being a Winchester, but the end result is that Castiel comes back. As a totally emotionally distant heaven's-orders-following what-is-rebellion douche, worse than at the very beginning, thanks to angelic re-education. "I don't serve man, and I certainly don't serve you," and bang goes a pretty important ally in this fight. It's sort of a secondary nightmare to Dean, though, because he totally just found out exactly how Sam's been powering up his abilities and what he's been doing with Ruby, and it's drinking demon blood. Because that's absolutely not disgusting at all, since it's for the greater good.

Haha, no. Dean and Bobby lock Sam in the demon-proof panic room in Bobby's basement while he detoxes from his demon blood addiction. It goes about as well as expected with something so supernaturally bad news, and involves a lot of screaming and hallucinating and seizures. Dean goes to Cas for help, because whatever plan the angels want his co-operation with is worth going along with if they'll help Sam, only to find himself signed up for something that they'll call him for later. Cas disappears. Dean fumes, without even knowing that Castiel has only winged his way downstairs to let Sam out of the panic room. Sam promptly runs to Ruby for terrible blood-related things. Dean has no idea where he is, but before he can get together a plan to find him, he finds himself stuck in a very ornate and nicely-decorated window-and-door-less room with Zachariah. Who then smugly reveals that this was actually all going according to plan, that the upper-management angels aren't actually trying to save the seals but have allowed sixty-five of the sixty-six to be broken, that they're just going to keep Dean in this 'Apocalypse Green Room' until after Lucifer's risen, and that Sam's demon blood thing was also all part of the scheme and he's going to be the one who raises Lucifer while trying to stop it. As soon as Dean is left alone with Cas, he appeals enough to finally get through whatever angelic conditioning happened. Cas uses a blood banishing sigil on a returning Zachariah, and then flies them both to Chuck, who can tell them where Sam is. Unfortunately, right after Chuck tells them, a very pissed off Archangel starts winging his way down to get them. Cas proves himself to be a BAMF by zapping Dean to where Sam is with angel mojo and facing the Archangel himself without a hope of survival. Even more unfortunately, however, he and Dean were too late to stop Sam from killing Lilith, who was actually the final seal. As soon as Lilith's blood starts making a distinctly portal-like pattern, Sam realises he's done something terribly wrong, and while Ruby finishes crowing about how awesome her plan was and her manipulation of Sam has been and generally having a well-deserved pat on the back, Dean runs in and he and Sam stab her with the demon-killing knife. It doesn't faze the slowly-rising Lucifer, though, and the doors lock while light and earsplitting angelic true voice pours out of the portal. Dean and Sam clutch at each other in growing terror….

…and then find themselves on a plane, watching the ensuing explosion from above. Thanks, God!

So after the plane is nearly brought down by the explosion, which would have been really cruelly ironic, Dean and Sam meet up with Bobby only to end up fighting Meg again. This confrontation ends with Bobby paralysed from the waist down, and that kind of sets the tone for the season. At any rate, the boys are then found by Becky, the biggest fan of Chuck's Supernatural books ever (yeah, the show went there). She passes on the message from Chuck about where they can find the "Michael Sword", which can defeat Lucifer, and they run to get it. Only to find that, surprise! It's Zacharaiah again! And the Michael Sword is actually a bit of angelic fancy way of saying "Michael's Vessel", and by "Michael's Vessel" he means "Dean". Plus side, Dean has to consent to being possessed thanks to how angel possessions work. Downside, there's nothing in the rules saying the yes can't be coerced. Zachariah promptly tries to force Dean to say yes by giving him stomach cancer and taking away Sam's lungs. Lucky for everyone, Castiel the cavalry comes flying in, owns the crap out of the angels and sends Zacharaiah and his ailments packing by proclaiming he was brought back from the Archangel exploding him into chunky angel salsa by God, who's apparently on a roll here. Cas gives them a fancy rib-engraving that hides them from the angels, and asks for Dean's special amulet (a childhood gift from Sam), as it actually is a charm that burns hot in the presence of God - Cas' plan is to find Him and get him to help. Dean doesn't put a lot of stock into that plan, because faith is not Dean's strong point.

Sadly, the rib trick doesn't hide them from the upcoming apocalypse. Neatly summed up by the fact that the boys have to fight and defeat the Horseman War. After the carnage that obviously results, Dean doubts Sam's ability to resist his addiction to demon blood, and Sam goes off to try to hide away and stay out of trouble. Dean partners up with Cas to face off with Raphael the smite-happy Archangel who blew Cas to pieces (stopping off to try and get Cas laid in a whorehouse beforehand because fuck you angelic virginity that's why), trapping him in a ring of holy fire only for Raphael to tell them that God is totally dead and it was probably Lucifer who did all the saving. Cas calls him a little bitch. Nobody leaves happy.

Zachariah then finds Dean thanks to a network of human evangelist nuts, and sends him on a jaunt to a post-apocalyptic 2014 where Dean is a giant broken uncaring torturing asshole, Cas is a perpetually stoned, very human, nihilistic sex guru, and the devil is wearing Sam like Lady Gaga's meat dress. Surprise! Dean is Michael's true vessel, Sam is Lucifer's! Everything goes to shit, the future is awful, Future Dean tells Dean to say yes to Michael to avoid Lucifer wiping out the planet like this, and then is killed by Sam!Lucifer who has a good smug sympathy-for-the-devil talk with Dean before Zachariah sends him back and Cas gets him away again. Dean meets back up with Sam because clearly they're stronger together than apart, and they "keep each other human". They work a few cases - including coming across the actual Antichrist, who turns out to be a nice little kid who ends up making the choice to get the hell out of Dodge and not work for Hell or Heaven, so good for him - and get accosted by the Trickster once again, who traps them in parodies of TV shows until they agree to say yes to Michael and Lucifer. They work out that he's actually the Archangel Gabriel and trap him in a ring of holy fire, where he reveals that Sam and Dean were destined to be the Vessels, and that their lives have intentionally mirrored Michael and Lucifer (the older Good Son and Soldier, loyal to the father, and the younger one who was rebellious and independent).

Following a call from Chuck that actually is from Becky, the boys find themselves at a Supernatural convention (yes, they went there, have you got the idea that this show feeds on meta and angst yet?), where Becky tells them a little nugget of information from the books - Bela gave the Colt to a demon named Crowley. They track him down, and he's actually willing to help, since Lucifer actually kind of hates demons and would kill all of them off with the humans. The boys and Cas make a plan to kill Lucifer with the Colt, bringing Ellen and Jo as backup, only for it to go horribly awry when they arrive to where they've tracked Lucifer. Cas can see a ton of Reapers, goes to investigate, and gets trapped by Lucifer in a ring of holy fire, and then the rest of the team finds Meg there with a pack of hellhounds (seriously, give the woman a survival medal). They escape to hole up in a hardware store, but the hellhounds fatally mauled Jo, who offers to go out with a quite literal bang, letting the hellhounds in only to blow them up and give Dean and Sam time to get to Lucifer and kill him. Ellen stays behind to help Jo and die with her daughter. The boys reach Lucifer and Dean shoots him in the face…only for it to have no more effect than a real bullet, because Archangels are unkillable by the Colt. Cas escapes the holy fire and transports the brothers out, too late to stop Lucifer's ritual to summon and bind Death. The losses of Ellen and Jo for something so pointless, and the loss of another one of their very few plans to beat Lucifer, shake everyone.

A few more cases later, including an incident with an occult-dabbling witch swapping bodies with Sam and nearly being coerced into giving the yes for him, and we see an old friend again - Anna! Except now she's not a friend, because heavenbrainwashed!Cas got her captured and put through the same Angel Boot Camp he was, and now she's kind of batshit and bent on stopping the Apocalypse any way possible. She goes back in time to kill Mary and John before they can conceive Sam, and Cas sends Dean and Sam back too to stop her. It doesn't go well, especially once Anna enlists the help of past!Uriel, Sam ends up dead and Anna is about to kill Mary, until Michael comes smiting in wearing John. Anna is burnt out of existence, and Dean talks to Michael face-to-face. Cain and Abel are Dean and Sam's ancestors, it really is their destiny, and it's inevitable that they'll both say yes eventually. Michael promises that John will be fine, as will Dean, even though the only other archangel vessel post-possession Dean saw was a drooling brain-damaged husk. Michael revives Sam, wipes Mary and John's memories, and sends everyone back to their own time. That went well, obviously.

The brothers then have to face the horseman Famine, who causes Sam to break and crave demon blood again, Cas to uncontrollably crave burgers to the point of eating raw meat off the floor, and Dean to crave…nothing, because Famine says he's dead inside. Sam uses his demon-juiced powers to take down Famine, and has to go through demon blood detox again. Dean calls to God for help, and gets nothing back. Soon after, the Dean and Sam are killed by two other hunters in an ambush, and have to avoid Zachariah long enough to find the angel Joshua in the Garden on Cas' orders, between re-living the happiest moments of their lives. They meet up with a few old dead friends, too, but also are caught by Zachariah, who is rather pissed at how long it's taking them to say yes, and is getting laughed at by the other angels because of it. He starts in on his favourite 'torture until you get the yes' trick, but is stopped by Joshua, acting on orders from God. any joy from that is pretty much cancelled out when they get to talk to Joshua properly and he tells them that yes, God saved them from Lucifer's original rising by putting them on the plane, yes, God brought Cas back, and yes, God saved them just now, but God also doesn't give two shits about this apocalypse and doesn't consider it his problem. They won't get any help from him. Joshua sends them back to Earth, where they break the news to Cas. Telling an angel that God no longer cares leads to something of a mental breakdown. When he flies away after giving the amulet back, Dean tosses it in the trash, even as Sam tries futilely to convince him that they'll still find another way to stop the Apocalypse. More signs of the end times pop up, including the Whore of Babylon, who a drunken Cas tells them can only be killed by a "true servant of Heaven". When the priest who they enlisted is tossed aside, and the Whore is about to kill Dean while taunting him with his lack of ability to kill her, he stabs her, muttering "don't be so sure." It works. Sam starts worrying about what Dean might be planning.

He's proved right when Dean disappears, to go say goodbye to Lisa, confessing that when he imagined a happy family life, it's with her and Ben, and promising that she'll be safe due to arrangements he'll make for her protection. Sam catches him at a nearby motel, as he's written a goodbye letter and packed all of his stuff to be sent to Bobby's. Dean admits that he's going to say yes, because he can see no other way, and cannot be convinced otherwise. Sam enlists Cas to mojo them all back to Bobby's, where they can keep an eye on Dean and stop him running off to the angels. Cas then also brings back an unexpected guest - Adam, their half-brother, whom the angels have raised from the dead. They also left him warned away from the Winchesters, and totally comfortable with the idea of saying yes to Michael. Confronted with this obvious 'plan B', Sam Cas and Bobby have no choice but to try to contain both Dean - who is even more determined to say yes rather than let Adam take the metaphorical bullet - and Adam, while convincing Adam that they're trustworthy and saying yes is a bad idea. Dean doesn't make this easy and tricks Cas into letting him out by luring him into the panic room where he's been locked and using an angel banishing sigil on him. Cas gets his revenge when he tracks Dean down as he tries to get a message to Zachariah using one of the evangelists, beats the holy crap out of Dean in an alleyway in a rage, and then drags an unconscious Dean back to Bobby's to lock him in the panic room again.

Meanwhile Zachariah's convinced Adam to give up his location in a dream, so he's now disappeared. Everyone mounts up to go rescue him, including Dean - Sam tells him that he trusts that Dean won't say yes, which even Dean says is crazy when this is either a trap to make Dean say yes (in which case he already will) or it's legit and they want Adam to say yes, in which case Dean will say yes anyway to spare Adam. Sam trusts him anyway. Cas emphatically doesn't, and essentially kamikazes himself using an angel banishing sigil on his body in order to clear the area of angels once they get there so that he won't have to watch Dean fail.

Castiel's sacrifice lets Dean and Sam get into the Green Room where Adam is being held, where it turns out that yes, it totally was a trap, and poor Adam only found out after he'd already given himself up to Zachariah. The man himself does his favourite game again, torturing Sam and Adam to make Dean say yes. Dean gives, and tells Zachariah to summon Michael, before looking over at Sam and winking. He then tells Zachariah, as Michael's thunderous entrance bears down on them, that he'll only say yes if Michael agrees to a few conditions, number one being that Michael will kill Zachariah. A pissed Zach grabs Dean and tells him that Michael will never agree to that, and Dean promptly tells him that he's going to make sure and stabs Zachariah himself with a hidden angel's blade, the only weapon capable of killing an angel. Zachariah's true form spills out in a burst of light as he dies, with Dean looking on and Michael still approaching.

PERSONALITY:
At first glance, Dean Winchester is your fairly typical red-blooded American alpha male. He loves pie and burgers, eschewing vegetables unless they're hidden under pastry or meat. He hits on anything attractively female that crosses his path, many times just for flirting's sake alone. He listens to rock music at top volume in his perfectly-kept muscle car. He makes fun of his intellectual little brother for being girly in his liking of salad, knowledge, and talking about feelings. Dean Winchester, Manly Man, does not do "chick flick moments", for he is allergic to talking about his own feelings due to manly male testosterone. He likes to kill the monster and get the girl, nice simple black-and-white worldview. He has no qualms about lying to the general public constantly about who he is and what he does, perfectly comfortable charming witnesses and faking everything from being a janitor to Homeland Security. Being arrested doesn't faze him, being in prison didn't faze him - tough as nails and quick with a witty comeback that's probably a reference to something, that's our Dean-o.

As you can probably tell, most of that is an act. Sure, Dean does love pie and beef, frisky women, and all-American cowboy movies, but on the inside, Dean is intensely screwed up. Raised as Daddy's little soldier, Dean developed his worldview and his persona to more accurately be what John wanted in a son. He devoted his life to looking after Sam in every way, making up for John's long hunting absences by basically raising him, being brother father and mother while still just a kid himself. When John was home Dean looked after him, too, as John says in In My Time Of Dying. Dean spent his younger years looking after everyone else, and never feeling as though John cared about him as much as Sam. Essentially all of his self-sacrificial issues and complete lack if self-worth can be traced back to John and his upbringing, and boy oh boy does Dean have a lot of those. Early as season one, Dean's willing to let a Reaper take him to save a girl's life, and intensely guilty that he was healed at the expense of some unknown stranger. John's deal is even worse, leaving him incomprehensibly guilty and without and outlet to vent that guilt and sorrow since he refuses point-blank to talk about it to Sam - he loathes having to appear weak and confess that kind of thing to Sam, because he's so caught up in needing to be the strong big brother.

Dean never had a childhood, he was forced to grow up way too early, which is why in a lot of ways Dean does not act like an emotionally mature thirty-year-old man, but in other ways seems aged far beyond his years. The show itself summed it up in the convention episode, where one of the 'panels' was called "Frightened Little Boy: The Secret Life of Dean". On top of that, he's tired of life and losing people as early as season two, even before his deal and Hell. By Season five, my canonpoint, he's so lost and helpless and tired and faithless in everything that he's willing to give himself up to an Archangel, forgetting everything about championing free will and finding a way to stop Lucifer without the equivalent of a celestial nuke, potentially roasting half the planet and being left brain-dead and drooling, just as what he sees as the only shot they have left.

Deep, deep down, though, he's still got a heart of gold (along with a real dorky streak). It's buried under layers of cynicism and macho posturing, but it's there. He may not have a lot of faith in people, but he'll fight to the death to protect them. In What Is And What Should Never Be, he gives up everything he has in the Djinn's dreamworld in large part because all the people he and Sam and John saved are now dead, and there are other people in the Djinn's warehouse that need saving - his chance at happiness, gone for the sake of strangers. He makes the right choice in the end, nine times out of ten, and it's the choice that's best for other people, not him.

Having said that, there's a real streak of darkness in him, left over from Hell, because nobody comes out of there unscathed, and nobody can shut down and torture even a demon like Dean does unless it still lingers. He admits to Sam that in Hell, he enjoyed torturing, because it wasn't him under the knife and it gave him back the power - something he feels intense amount of guilt for (but then Dean generally feels guilty about absolutely anything he can, his self-worth is that low). He's got a mean temper - he's punched Sam a few times, attempted to punch Cas, yelled at pretty much everyone - and has a tendency towards bitterness and hurt that means he's far less likely to forgive easily than Sam.

Dean is only a normal human, when it comes down to it, albeit one with hunter training and more in-depth knowledge of firearms, supernatural lore, and torture than any person should have, but he has normal human weaknesses and normal human strength. His biggest weaknesses are emotional ones - family, stated over and over in the show. He knows it, too, and doesn't let himself get close to people, generally speaking - a few people manage it, Bobby and Castiel for example, but they're exceptions to the rule. Dean has abandonment issues out the wazoo, so getting close to people is just asking to be hurt. In more mundane news, he has a fear of flying. It's why he drives everywhere.


CHARACTER RELATIONSHIPS:
SAM: So much of who Dean is is tied up in his self-identity as Sam's Big Brother. Dean practically raised Sam, lived a life of putting Sam before everything and everyone else, protecting him above everything. He went to Hell for Sam without a second thought. Sam's betrayal with Ruby hit him hard, and it's really only at my pull point that Dean starts to believe in Sam again - right before they march on the Green Room, Dean tells Sam that he just can't have faith in him any more, and keeps wondering when he's going to break and say yes. It's at least partially to make a point to Sam, at the time, but it's got plenty of truth to it - it's only in the Green Room that he makes the decision to trust his brother again. It was always coming, to be honest, because Dean is unhealthily codependent on Sam - again, remarked upon by multiple people in canon - and it was only going to be so long before he forgave him. Dean has a real problem with faith, but if there's one thing he can believe in, it's Sam.

JOHN: Every issue Dean has can probably be traced back to John somewhere along the line. Even after all that, Dean spent most of his life idolising John as a commander and a dad who was just trying his best to protect his kids - it's only when faced with his own imminent descent to Hell and more immediate confrontation with the demon self in Dream A Little Dream Of Me that he breaks and admits that he John wasn't the hero he'd always thought of him as, and that John was an "obsessed bastard" who put a lot of crap on Dean that he didn't deserve. Still, though, John's influence is impossible to deny - everything Dean knows about hunting, he learned from John, the Impala was John's, even the music Dean listens to and loves so much was John's. Dean has a hell of a lot of issues surrounding his father, but there's a reason he's Michael's intended vessel - he's the Good Son, through and through, and he'll never truly shake that off.

BOBBY: Everything John wasn't as a father figure rather than a drill sergeant, Bobby was and still is. John dumped the boys at Bobby's house for babysitting purposes many a time, and Bobby taught them baseball rather than shooting and generally cared for them as kids who needed a childhood and a real father. Bobby is the closest thing Dean has to a parent currently living.

CASTIEL: When a guy's first impression is rescuing you from Hell, it's hard for them not to have an impact on your life. Castiel made life immeasurably more complicated by introducing the angels into Dean's life, but he also gave Dean something he'd never really had before - a friend. Castiel has quite literally seen him at his darkest point - even Sam never saw Dean torturing souls in Hell - and still gives up everything to follow him. Dean trusts Cas pretty quickly, too, for him, knowing he's someone to appeal to who'll do the right thing after only a few meetings (It's The Great Pumpkin, Sam Winchester) and Dean breaks down on him in the hospital after Alastair nearly kills them both, something he wouldn't be able to do with anyone else. Cas also had faith in him, even after seeing him in Hell, when Sam didn't - which is why the loss of Cas' faith in him now is a blow. Not as much as Sam's was, but then nothing could be - but Cas somehow became one of the most important people in Dean's life outside of Sam and Bobby in a comparatively short time.

JO AND ELLEN: Another couple of people who made a very strong impression and ended up folded into the family, Ellen basically stepped into the mothering role with Dean. He respected her as a fighter and even confessed to being a little bit scared of her (he was probably only half-joking at the time, Ellen can be scary). They both came into Dean's life right after John died, so right at the time when he was most in need of a family - he did try hitting on Jo, but admitted it was just not working due to his frame of mind, and she slipped more into the role of a little sister. Jo and Ellen's deaths were a serious contributing factor to Dean's depressive slump - he blamed himself heavily for it, still does and likely always will.

ALASTAIR: "I carved you into a new animal," said Alastair of his time with Dean in Hell, and he wasn't kidding. Alastair was Dean's chief torturer, and then his close mentor. Dean obviously still feared Alastair from his reaction once it's revealed which demon they're facing, and it's clear from how absolutely he doesn't want to enter the room and torture Alastair for the angels later on that he's afraid of what letting loose his cold-blooded thirst for vengeance (that he tells Alastair about, when the demon is on the rack) will turn him into - because of Alastair and what Alastair already turned him into. Alastair taunts him with how close they were in Hell, and it is skeevy in so many ways. Alastair is emblematic of Dean's time in Hell, and the orchestrator of his breaking. Any issues that John didn't give him can probably be traced to his forty years with Alastair.

LISA AND BEN: "When I picture myself happy, it's with you." Although Lisa says that Ben is not actually Dean's son, despite his resemblance and coincidental timing, it's clear that Dean immediately felt a filial connection there. Lisa and Ben represent the family life that Dean wants so badly but can never have, and Dean definitely feels real paternal affection towards Ben, genetic father or not. She may have been only a weekend of really awesome sex, but Lisa came to represent something much, much bigger to Dean once he came back and saw her living the family life with Ben.

RUBY: She may be dead, but her shadow still hangs over Dean and Sam's relationship all through season five. Dean never truly trusted her, even when she was claiming to find a way to break his deal and keep him from Hell, but any fragile thing they may have had was long gone by the time he found out that she was who Sam was disappearing off to see and practice his powers with. Dean is still bitter that she, for want of a better phrasing, seduced his brother away, and stabbing her was a stabbing of righteous fury.

ZACHARIAH Speaking of stabbing with extreme prejudice! Zachariah is basically the reason that Dean thinks angels are truly dicks. Zachariah knew how to play Dean like a fiddle - nobody before or since has ever really played Dean's family-weakness against him so effectively, nor come so close to getting what he wanted from Dean every time. He successfully gave Dean some of his zeal for hunting back, his plan to keep Dean on standby until Lucifer rose would have worked if Cas hadn't found his spine again, his plan to use Adam to bring Dean to him worked perfectly, his season of work to drive Dean to the big Yes would have worked if Dean hadn't had that final surge of not wanting to disappoint Sam…Zachariah was a smarmy bastard who knew exactly how to hit Dean where it hurt. Stabbing him right in the face was definitely another high moment for Dean.

TIMELINE SUMMARY: 5x18, Point of No Return
Sam and Adam lie gasping and choking on blood on either side of him.

"You know there's no other choice. There's never been a choice." Zachariah's tone is almost conversational, a dark hint of smugness the only concession to the serious nature of the situation.

"Stop it," Dean pleads, and he can't even work up any anger to back his tone. He sounds desperate and broken, and he knows full well it's because he is. He came here to say yes, knows he did, and he hates that Zachariah's right - there's no choice here, not really, not with his brother and his half-brother choking to death on their own blood right next to him. "Stop it right now!"

"In exchange for what?"

The bastard knows. He knows Dean's hit the end of his rope and he's rubbing it in Dean's face. Probably has the right to, given that this is what Dean's reduced to. "Damn it, Zachariah," through gritted teeth, voice barely a whisper "stop it, please?"

He swallows, and can't help but cast a momentary glance at Sam. This is a betrayal, of everything he stood for but most importantly of Sam's trust, and he can see it written all over his brother's face. No. Can't look at Sammy as he croaks out "I'll do it."

"I'm sorry. What was that?" Zachariah cups a hand around his ear mockingly, so obviously relishing the moment that it's sickening, and Dean hates himself a little more. His eyes flick towards Sam again involuntarily, as if he needs to remind himself of the reason he's doing this - gotta stop Lucifer before he gets his hands on Sammy, gotta protect him, gotta save as much of the world as I can, this is the only way - but he can't turn and look, can't bear to see Sam's face.

"Okay, yes." His voice is practically a hiss now, and Dean doesn't know who that hatred is directed at more - the dick angel in front of him, God, or Dean himself. "The answer is yes."

Through the blood, Sam chokes out a low, horrified "Dean!" and Dean rushes to drown out the sound with a loud "Do you hear me? So call Michael down, you bastard!"

It's almost loud and angry enough to sound like himself, except for the part where his voice cracks on the last word. This is killing him, as surely as Zachariah's mojo crap was killing Sam and Adam, and it probably hurts as goddamn much. This is the only way, Dean tries to tell himself over and over, there is no better goddamn plan, sounding as broken in his head as he did out loud, what else am I supposed to do?

There's no sound but Sam and Adam's harsh breathing, and the blood loud in Dean's ears.

"How do I know you're not lying?"

"Do I look like I'm lying?" Dean's always been an open freaking book to angels before, so surely all this heartbreak has got to be written in every line of him. The longer this takes the harder it is, and Dean thinks back to Gabriel in that ring of holy fire. "I just want it to be over!" At the time, Dean had thought the Archangel weak, cowardly. Now he gets it. It's tearing him apart, it hurts too much, and he just wants done with this whole thing before he wimps out on wimping out and goes to hide in a cave until the whole Apocalypse is finished.

Apparently it's enough to convince Zachariah, and the smirk that slides onto his face is enough to make Dean want to hurl. The angel turns and begins to chant in Enochian. Dean's busy being at war with himself. Anything that makes that smarmy angel bastard grin like that is an automatic Do Not Do. But there's no other way. He's letting everyone down. But goddamnit, he's always been letting everyone down, and trying to be strong for everyone's gotten them to this point. There's no other plan, and no other way to stop Lucifer. They tried.

But Sam's right there, and he's watching. Dean looks over - probably the last time actually seeing out of this meatsuit - and Sam's head drops in defeat. Goddamnit, it's too much, because Dean's been there, been the one on the floor covered in blood while his brother does something monumentally stupid trying to save the world, felt that stab of disappointment that feels like a blade through the chest, and he can't believe he's doing it to Sam. Sammy, who brought him here, the stupid son of a bitch, trusted him to do the right thing when Sam didn't, trying so hard to make up for everything he did while Ruby had her claws in him - Sam looks up again, and Dean thinks no. It's a weird bubble of defiance in the see of despair, but it grows and grows. He doesn't wanna see that hope and faith fade from Sam's eyes. Doesn't want Sam to go through what Dean did seeing Lucifer walking around wearing Sam's meat. And he's not gonna let it happen. They'll find a way to stop it. This is their mess, Dean's mess, and they'll find a way to fix it that doesn't involve bending over for some angelic douchebag with a boner for fate.

Speaking of, the chanting stops. "He's coming," Zachariah says in hushed, awed excitement, as the room begins to shake.

Sam's stupid misplaced faith in him at his lowest, when everyone else had given up - he's gonna earn it. Right here and now. It's almost elating, feeling that hard certainty again, and Dean's mind is already thinking of ways to all three of them out of here.

He winks at Sam, not bothering to hide his smile, and relishes the confusion overtaking the betrayal and hurt before turning back to Zachariah.

"Of course, I have a few conditions." He definitely hadn't envisioned saying that with any lightness in his heart or swagger in his voice, and the thought almost makes him giddier.

"What?" says the angel, turning back to him with the look of a man who's had the rug pulled out from under the feet of victory one too many times.

"The few people whose safety you have to guarantee before I say yes."

Zachariah relaxes, although he still seems surprised and a little wary of Dean's sudden surge of courage. "Sure, fine. Make a list."

"But most of all…" and Dean doesn't bother hiding the growl of hate in his voice, and this time it's all at the son-of-a-bitch in front of him, "Michael can't have me until he disintegrates you."

"What did you say?" Soft and almost disbelieving.

"I said," taking a step forward, beginning of a smirk just touching his lips, "before Michael gets one piece of this sweet ass, he has to turn you into a piece of charcoal." It feels good to stand up to Zachariah again, Dean's flying high on pent-up fury the was hidden behind the big depressive blanket he was smothered in, and he feels like himself again.

You watchin', Sammy?

Zachariah laughs in total disbelief, and stares at him. "You really think Michael's gonna go for that?" But if there's one thing Dean knows how to read, it's when someone's hiding fear. And that's just perfect.

"Who's more important to him now? You…or me?" Come on, you son of a bitch.

Zachariah falls for it, hook line and sinker, and jerks forward into Dean's personal space, twisting a hand in Dean's shirt and hurling insults through gritted teeth and Dean would be intimidated if this wasn't exactly what he wanted. "Do you know who I am, after I deliver you to Michael?" Zachariah spits.

"Expendable," Dean hisses out, as he pulls out the angel blade hidden under his jacket. He'd been sure he wouldn't need it, but now he owed Sam a beer or something for making him pick it up.

"Michael's not gonna kill me," Zachariah laughs, with a distinct edge of nervousness.

"Maybe not." Angel blade at the ready. "But I am."

Dean slams the blade up through Zachariah's chin in one graceful swing before the angel can even react. The flash of bright light that follows takes everyone by surprise, even Dean, but he doesn't let go of the blade - this is one death he wants to know responsibility for. The shaking of the room is growing ever harder, things crashing to the ground, but Dean's attention is drawn back to the steadily brightening glow of Zachariah's Grace spilling out of his vessel in death. He should be blinded by looking at it, he knows, but - it doesn't hurt, it's just bright, and Dean can't stop staring. He thinks he can see things in the brightness, something huge and incomprehensible, and he can't stop thinking holy crap, this is an angel, I just killed an angel, a douchebag angel but a freaking angel. Came here to say drop trou for Michael and look at me now.

You watchin', Sammy?

Then the light flares out again as Zachariah dies once and for all, with physical force like the flap of giant wings, and Dean is sent flying against the wall.



POWERS
SAMPLE - THE AWAKENING:
Okay, apparently staring into angel Grace gave you some really trippy visions.

"You guys should bottle this stuff and sell it to the hippie crowd," Dean mutters. The glass beneath his feet sure felt real, the oppressive cloying darkness had felt damn real before that, and--

Take your time. Don't be afraid. There is much to do.

Okay, that sounded real too, but distinctly not…out loud, like a good respectable voice should be. Voices that weren't out in the open were never a good sign. Dean reached for his gun automatically-- not there. Angel knife was gone, in Zachariah's face. He couldn't feel the knife in his boot any more, either.

"Unlucky for you, Casper, I got a full schedule." He turned on his heel, only to see the edge of a very high precipice. With a startled "Jesus Christ!" he reared back, away from the edge.

The door is still shut.

"Oh you gotta be kidding me." Great, because he hadn't had enough of dealing with this freaking vague crap. Probably for the best that he was mentally interrupted, with the soft command to step forward, since he was minutes away from unleashing a rant that would boil down to I have had the mother of all bad days and 'not in the mood' does not even begin to cover it.

Wary, half expecting the glass to shatter and send him falling back into that black abyss, Dean edged forward. There really wasn't anywhere else to go, anyway. The light that suddenly beamed down made him jump back with a mental alarm of angels, but when nothing more threatening three blocks emerged a little of the sudden tension leeched from Dean's stance.

Power sleeps within you. If you give it form, it will give you strength.

That was a new one for Dean. His life for the past year or so had been more, 'power wants to be within you' than anything else. He followed the appearing sword, shield and magic wand thing with trepidation, not not just a little confusion. If he looked at the sword out of the corner of his eye, it was the angel blade - blinked, and saw the Colt - and the same thing happened for the magic wand; corner of his eye, hex bag. The shield almost disappeared when he gave it the old sidelong, leaving nothing but a Devil's Trap superimposed on the vague shield-like outline left in the air.

"What the…"

Choose wisely.

Dean grimaced, and looked up at the unending darkness. "You're a real shitty spirit guide, you know that?"

With a sigh, he looked back down and over to the pedestals. His eyes lingered for a moment on the shield, drawn to it for some reason, but his training kicked in. He had no weapon. This was an unfamiliar place, and Sam was nowhere to be seen. No immediate enemies, but that ethereal voice meant something was out there. Dean reached for the sword. Find a weapon. First rule.

The power of the warrior, intoned said voice, as his hand closed around the unfamiliar hilt, invincible courage. A sword of terrible destruction. Is this the power you seek?

Dean hesitated for just a moment. He had a feeling that this was more than just grabbing a sword, here. He spared a glance for the other two items, though, and every hunter's instinct rebelled against letting a weapon go for a stick or a shield. Not that Dean was proficient in swords, but it was just like a big knife, right?

He tugged at the sword, and it disappeared in a little flash of light. Dean smacked his face with his suddenly free hand. Nothing's ever just that simple, is it? Son of a bitch.

Now, what will you give up in exchange?

With an annoyed growl, Dean stomped over to the wand. Magic was always Bobby and Cas and Sam's thing anyway.

The power of the mystic. Inner strength. A staff of wonder and ruin. Do you give up this power?

"Who needs hex bags anyway, right? Come on, Obi-Wan, take the damn thing and give me the sword back."

You've chosen the power of the warrior. You've given up the power of the mystic. Is this the form you choose?

Again, for a moment, Dean hesitated. There was something more to this, every hunter's instinct was screaming it, but he couldn't for the life of him work out what. What kind of life choice gets given to you on a glass floor in space? Maybe if Sam were here…

"Yeah, okay, I choose. Now send me back. Beam me up, Scotty. The works." Thinking about Sam reminded him of his real job to do right now. He didn't know how long he'd been here, or floating in the darkness before, but he was still kind of hoping this was some really realistic dream and he was just out cold on the floor of the fancy room. If he woke up now, they'd still have time to get out before Michael blasted the place to crap with his Grace. Probably.

Of course, nothing is that simple ever for a Winchester. Dean watches the blocks crumble and the edge of the circle start to follow, and hates his luck.

"Not what I meant, not what I meant, son of a bitch--"

He'd already done the whole swinging-around-looking-for-an-exit thing, but there's a distinct lack of anywhere to run to, and before he can do anything the glass under his feet joins the air-shattering procession and he's falling back into darkness with a loud yell.

SPECIAL ABILITIES:
Dean is one of the Avenger class, which doesn't mean a whole lot in terms of his powers because he…doesn't have any! He'll still have his hunter-trained badassness, but that's no superhuman strength. Dean is already strongest and most adept in battle when defending others, so that works well for him. He'll rock that coat, too, and the weapon he'll get to keep will be the demon-killing knife rather than the Colt, since that hasn't been in his possession since they fought Lucifer.


NOTES/ASPIRATIONS
I'd like for Dean to actually branch out and make some relationships that aren't his brother, to be quite honest. They're good for him, and he doesn't have nearly enough of them. It'll take him a hell of a long time to get past wanting - needing - to get back, since when he left Sam and Adam were in kind of a really bad position, but he'll eventually have to trust that Sam got them out okay for the sake of his own peace of mind. I'd like for him to get involved with missions, too, because Dean can be a good leader when it comes to groups of people out to fight for something.